It’s 8:42 in the morning & I just can’t seem to get him off my mind . It would appear in life I had it all but the only thing I ever truly wanted was love . I found that . At least I believed to have found love . Doubt is something that can really destroy a relationship, doubt your partner, you doubt your relationship & that leaves room for accusations & arguments. It seems to me that yet again I may end up alone all due to this doubt. My loyalty no longer matters . My cries have no affect . I know it’s nothing but the devil steady working in my life trying to destroy me, but I will not fall. Though my heart might be in pieces once again my spirit cannot & will not be broken . I love you . It just hurts that it seems I did everything right but still everything goes wrong . When will I recover from this pain ? When will I feel whole again ?